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5/27/2009
noone but me from URL @ 12:09 AM HAPPY BIRTHDAY EXXXXX!!! :D :D :D  I dunno why but of allll pictures, i wanted to use this for yr bday! Hahaha its so us isn't it? You unable to keep your hands off me, and me unable to keep your hands off me too! Heh. Anw 18 suriaaa, mannz. I still rmbr the little nerdy you in sec1 and now you're some prettypretty ladyyy with PP coming after you HAHA. Anywayyy, dearest ex, although we're not as close as we used to be (but i think its only cos we were thaaat close then), i want you to know that you have been one of the greatest friends i have ever had in my entireeeee life, being there for me through shittzz & joys, and no matter what, i will always love you veryveryveryyyy much. Thank you for being exactly who you are the way you are and suria, you're extremely special to me, i hope you realise that. No one can everever replace the Ex in my heart, ever :) Happy birthday darling! (smacks your boobs and runs away!) --- Sometimes someone does or says things that imply that he misses you, and he doesn't even realise it, but you do. I think that's sincerity. Beats saying, 'i miss you' directly. Its extremely Refreshing. (he being generic btw) Anyhows, I've got another bomb thats about to blow, im tired dammit. Suria's 18 :) slow down, spin slow. 5/24/2009 noone but me from URL @ 10:58 PM & bythebythebythe wayyyyy, I'm a proud proud aunty again! :D Cousin's given birth to a little girl! Thank God & God Bless. :)
noone but me from URL @ 6:23 PM I am the wizard of "ooh"s and "aah"s and "falala"s, Narmadha's beautiful curling free kick.  Vj's defending champions :)  Our defending champz :)  Our future chimp-champ! :D  Our future perverted gynaecologist! :D  Very simply but appropriately, :D  I was really quite glad at the outcome of the match. Everyone said it was impossible that adlin & I wanted VJ to win but Suria Narmo to play well, but screwww youuu. 3 stripes says impossible is nothing- in line with that, VJ won plus Suria got outstanding player and Narmo scored the goal! :D :D :D Hey lovelies, im so freaking proud of you! Suria OUTSTANDING PLAYER LAAAA. Told you you were the best player on the field! and Narmo! GOAL OR WHAT! It was a damn beautiful free kick mannz! :) && vjsg, what else other than awesome awesome awesome work. Ya'll totally deserve the title champions! & nurin, haha next yr i dedicate a whole paragraph to you k. Okay, im so glad that that match's over. Next up guyzzz, all zee bezt mannz. Oh & backtrack, hockey girls won! The match was soso cos they were awesome, handsdown. Hockey boys was quite heartwrenching :/ plus stoopid RI, so many natl players might as well play in the national league right, A div all for whaaat. Grrr, but Vj guys played sososo well! :) Good job ya'll. I'm going to miss going for match support and screaming for zee schoool. -- & thanks to ganesh for the cheeky girlz roses and lunch (the sweet thought was there! haha) on friday! :) Have i mentioned that i like the ics people quite a lot? haha yes i have. Indianz rulezzzz! hahaha. & hello to everybody on friday! esp ganesh & kathleen kong! ganesh, see you soon again armyman! Endure ASLC! & kettleen its been so long since we've gone out and talktalktalked haha, lets keep talking please. & sunm said on her blog she's going home alr. Home alr means singapore soon! :) Plus JAT too! :) Whoooptidoo, i cant wait for all you lovelies to come home mann. I on the other hand, ought to be shot because i have done absolutely NOTHING the entire weekend. Everyone tells me im not gna screw up my As but at the rate i'm going, i scare myself. Grrr, gotta pull up my sinking socks. So.. AGAIN HERE AND NOW. I am going to declare absence from online-life; or maybe increased absence cos i can't not go online forever rightttt. Yeap. & Uhh, maybe just next week onwards cos i still have to clear essays this week, so shout at me if you see me online during the holzz please. &&& I have 4 days of ncc to indulge in again! :D :D :D :D :D You've no idea how glad i am for the sweeet escape. Alrightyhooo, adious! Till the only thing that's true, 5/21/2009 noone but me from URL @ 12:29 AM Tell me what you've got for me,
so baby make your move, 5/16/2009 noone but me from URL @ 2:53 PM Starlight Starbucks!  This is because when Roopi and I grow older, we're both gna be so damned plagued with alzheimers we won't be able to remember each other when we go out. :) I love you Roopi! SARO IS A HUGE MOOD KILLER! MURDERER! sushie buffet, sizeriya, white dense fumigation 2 movies, SHE SUCKS! SOOOOOO MUCH! You don't know how to spell sushi and action use big words only, but again i say, i love you Roopi! :) Okay, dunno why bluetooth connection isn't working, so no pictures of adlin aka cicakgirl for you todayyy. But as always, she was awesomeee! Good luck for finalzz B! :) My laptop's going to die and i didnt bring my charger ): Bye. You're hot then you're cold. 5/15/2009 noone but me from URL @ 11:42 PM When you say nothing at all, Totally didn't regret ponning KI lecture right in front of Mr Wong's face. VJSG put up an awesome show, seriously. I want to say it was RI's bad day, but mannzzz we were really good. Good job girls! All the way for finals! && Suria narmo, ya'll were THE men. I don't really know how to describe how wonderful the 2 of you were, but it was along the lines of superbbbb. Superduper proud of you two. & its like what kathleen said, when you have close friends playing the feeling is just different. Press on for the finals k? :) Love you two! & Nurinnnn, haha it was exciting just seeing you down there on the field! Dont be so sad k, next year's your year to kick all the ballzz on the field. Love you too! :) Plusplus, bonus addition: met alllll of you peoplez again! Today was a nice and easy day with cmates, ics peeps & roopi. I've got a new phone & i like it veryvery much just that im not so used to it yet. And i have a new number too! which i like veryvery much too, hahaha. Msg ya'll soon. & i felt so adult-ish paying for it myself and signing all the documents and all haha, cheap thrill. Im 18 you're not, bluekzzz. Alright, adlin's cicak comp tmr morninggg, so time for bed now, goodnight everybody! (i was telling her of someone's blog & how i read it regularly cos i like the way she writes. & then i told her of another blog i read regularly for entertainment, and then.. ) rupini ; says (11:58 PM): sarahh. go go, alevelinawhilecareabtyrlifeabitmorepls.wordpress.com sarahj say it like you mean it; says (11:58 PM): goshhh kk gg. sarahj say it like you mean it; says (11:59 PM): EH OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG BASTARDDDDDDDDDDDDD HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH rupini ; says (11:59 PM): OMGGGGGGGGGgggg rupini ; says (11:59 PM): YOU STOOPID FOOL Waiting. i find it kinda funny. i find it kinda sad. 5/13/2009 noone but me from URL @ 6:26 PM "Fo Shizzle Ma Nizzle"  Us plus approx 30 other indianzz conquered downtown east on monday & it was like a freakin zoo excursion, seriously. ICS outing yo. & only indians will talktalktalk and keep stopping while moving from place to place like indian water buffalos hahaha. I like this bunch, no not just those in the photo but everyone. Had fun had fun! :D --- I was so proud of myself cos i finished my lit essays, but 2 more just came in :/ This is what sucks about being in the arts fac. When the essays come in, it's always annoyingly in a bloc, all at the same time. & hellooo, like the fact that they're essays doesn't suck enough. --- I felt so used yesterday but i think i get where you're coming from right now. Im finally able to get you. I thank God for finally answering my prayers. As always its not what i expected, but something else thats greater. The first change for me since i'm 18, i just hope its not too late. It's the least i can do for you now i guess. It's the least i have to do. I don't think i can entertain as yet, and it tears me inside, but i'm gna try and tolerate. & this is for having been larger than life to me. I dont think im dealing with the fact that you could go anytime. Saying it out loud is not helping either and it scares me so, much. --- Congrats to Charlie 09 & Good job Delta 09! Like Roopi says, delta 07 we're dinosaurs la seriously. Okay im gna go watch friends(!!!) and then do either my KI or history essays. & I'm excited for tomorrow! GOGO VJ, SURIA NARMO NURIN! You confuse me. So long live the car crash hearts, cry on the couch all the poets come alive and fix me in 45.
5/10/2009 noone but me from URL @ 9:08 PM I always see the silhouette of a rabbit whenever i see a full moon. I should like to go to the moon someday; i think that despite all its craters and the lack of oxygen, it'll be extremely beautiful. Go look out your window ya'll, its a cloudless starry full moon night. 5/09/2009 noone but me from URL @ 11:06 PM With a cherry on top! Oh happy day! I woke up to happy msgs, 2 of them from sgt dhilshad & roopi! ONE: Roopi was doing sth sweet today awwwww, HAHAHAH. (i love you k apple, dont hit me) & stop being so paranoid plzzzz. TWO: SGT DHILSHAD GOT INTO NUS MEDICINEEEEEE! :D :D :D I feel so extremely veryvery proud of her because 1)helllloooo its NUS medicine, not any tomdick&harry gets in! & 2)its her dream come true! :) I dunno, probably cos ever since i've known her, i've known that she's wanted to be a gynae and as the years went by, esp last year, she's been studying so damn hard just to get into that course and she did it. She actually did it! Okay HELLO SGT DHILSHAD! Although you're secretly pyscho and ever more secretly perverted (heh) I wna say that im extremely veryvery proud of you for going to be my first ever doctor friend! :D You represent everything that dispels the word 'impossible' and you may not know it, but you're my secret (and now not so secret) role model :) Im very glad that i met you early on in my life cos you're such an awesome person (senior and friend) & i know you dont need me to say this, cos you already know it for yourself, but the next 5 years studying and your life as a perverted gynae after that is going to rock, because you're gna make it rock! :) Yay, gogo sgt dhilshad! (check it out sgt! It's yr fav colour too! hahaha.) & i think another reason why it made me extra happy is cos so many people have recently been seeing their dreams crash right in front of them, & so many others just cant see their dreams ever materialising, so it was reallly heartwarming to have someone so impt to me have their dream come true. :) Hello friendzzz, your dreams can come true too. Make it. Okkk and my granduncle's wedding was just funny. 63 weds 47, hurrrr. It was even funnier cos my cousin gang was there and you know how we kids are for these kinda things. (yah silly and immature). But it was a happyhappy event cos i gotta catch up with them :) Plus, thanks for letting me take it out on you & making me laugh! :) JUST FOR LAUGHS! (readread!) dhilshad SEE I KNEW IT dhilshad i was gonna say just now (wait, did i say it?) that i can never be a pervert cos you mix around friends like adlin and nurin, haha confirm become damn crazy/pervert! sarahj say it like you mean it; AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA okay im so gna tell them that! HAHA how come you know nurin is a pervert! sarahj say it like you mean it; but yeah she is like the biggest one around! during ramadan we had to force her to stop being a pervert know! hahaha. dhilshad HAHAA OMG SEE IM RIGHT dhilshad its the eyes lah dhilshad can totally tell dhilshad then suria is a major perv but she's that kind that can hide it LAWL dhilshad bet i'm right sarahj say it like you mean it; AHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA sarahj say it like you mean it; gooodnesssss, you realllly know us quite well. --- Suria & Nurin? I REST MY CASE. Goodnight! know that i'll be here forever
noone but me from URL @ 12:27 AM You wont be seventeen forever, and we can get away with this tonight! Birthdayyyyy! Psychogirls started my day with macsbreakfast! & a cute card haha :) Lovelies sang a song plus gave stuffs, &thanks for the gift kiron! & then ics peepz sang me happy bday in various languages hehh. Yeapp, & thennnn, spent a few hours of my eighteenth with the lovelies below :) Went to JJ to support suria & narmo! & suria scored my bday goal for meeee! :D Surprised me with a mini cake & loadzzz of water, thanks ah! haha. Then it was back to school for me to pract for ics night. (suria, nish, adlin, roopi, zarifah, narmo, kath & vicky!)  Indian Cultural Society (ICS) Night! Birthday surpriseeeee! HAHA. Okay shall leave out spoiler content! Supposed to have met roopi for dinner, but we wre supp to go to her mom's chalet to deliver fire starters for their bbq, first. Met reema, cherylC &boonhui otw! :) buttt, hahaha got there & the whole place was dark and the door opened and WAHLAHHH! SURPRISEEEE! HAHAHAHA! In all honesty, i was really shocked okay! I was taken aback cos there were soooo many people!! Esp allll the peoplezz i hadn't seen for superrrlong!  :):):):):)K anw, fast forward. Cut my cake & upon insistence i was about to make my 18th bday speech but of courseeee not. Whaaat only speech, bluekkzzz. (As you can see from above, stupid Roopi holding the floor behind me & zarifah's michievous face homgzzz) Ambushed w flour, water, tomato ketchup, whipped cream and dunno what :/ Such darlings messed me up & ran away hahaha but not funny. I stank like shit mannz. But yesyes, it was funnnn :D  Haha, took pictures & banged some heads (im sorry!) & then showered and talked to everyone :) :) :) :) :) I dunno how many smileys to insert cos i was so freaking happy :) :) :) :) :) KK thankyous- Muu, Marly, Adel, Sus, Lichu, Sher, Nish, Roopi, Suria, Cheryl, Nat, Nurin, Kath, Wati, Narmo, Zaferin, Feeza, Zarifah, Xiao Wei, Yani, Syimah & my mommyyyy. Thanks to cherylchen & boonhui for the hershley's sundae pie! & delta dearests, my lovelies, zaferin & narmo for coming down even though ya'll are so beeezeee, mannz it meant the world to me! :D & thanks to the old-sister-mal's-gang haha for being the 'first-come-last-go' and helping to cook and clean and dont mind me talking to everyone else first! :D & nurin for being a nicenice maid && Roopi, for i dunno where to start and where to end, but everything :) Ahahahah, i had a blast, so thanks all of you :)  Welllll, sat was with the family plus a few of my mom's friends plus Roopi who dropped by! haha quite exciting cos its like "meet the in-laws" for her HAHA. Spent the entire night by the beach talking, playing & drinkning with zee cousinzz. Okay this has been a very long and happy post, im proud of myself! But people like Zaferin & 4iclassmates who owe me peektures plz senddd! I don't have any at all with ya'll mann. Okay. Now let me be anti climax and list out my hw k. Finish irony essay, drama essay, arab-israeli essay, 4 critical thinking essays, math tutorials & dunno what else. Whaaaat a spoiler. Anw ppmacs-ed today with roopi & nish. && HAHA. my 60+sth year old Granduncle is getting married tmr! :O right! hahahah. Wellwellwellll, a lot of tired but not sleepy people online haha. Okkk ciao! (psst: have i told you how much you suck.) (psstpsst: hi hello my angry friend, i love you!) you make it easier, when life gets hard
5/06/2009 noone but me from URL @ 8:54 PM Wouldn't you rather be a widow, then a divorcee? Style your wake, for fashion magazines. Go bother, if you bother. I am so tired of all this shit that i've been putting up with, enduring, brushing off, tolerating. Whatever you call it, it's all the same thing at the end of the day, and i am just very very, tired. I get so tired of being put in a spot, expected to choose, expected to understand exactly how the 2 of you feel, expected to know exactly what the two of you are thinking and do exactly what the two of you think are right things, when hello wth, you two think so damn differently. I hate the way the two of you keep saying the worst things about the other as though it would mean nothing to us, when it makes me so damn mad i could burst. I burst. I cry till i freaking cannot speak and you don't stop do you? The two of you don't stop. You never stop. I dont understand why they call it a divorce when the two of you never stop. It has been, is always, and is always going to be the two of you; neither physically or emotionally together, but it's freaking worse because you take the separation out on us. How do i know who's right, right? I am only 18, dammit. I'm too young to know what's right, but i'm old enough to know what i'm supposed to do? no i dont get it. I don't get it, and i am so very awfully tired of trying to. I could burst. I physically feel that i could burst. But i suck it up cos i dont have the time for being an emotional wreck. I am sarahj, i am strong like that. & I am sarahj and my life is screwed up like that. Come on friends, ask me. When was the last time i didn't cry once on a special occasion like bday/xmas/new year, in at least a year?Thanks for making my 18th a blast too. I am seriously, extremely, tired. When i fight with my father, i never say bye when we leave; and then i spend the next few days till i talk to him worrying if he got home alright. i hope that my brother gets into a jc, so that i can ciao off. I dont know what i want to do, but i do not want to do it here. i dont have money, so i want a scholarship. yes adlin, im like you. i run away. screw you who think you're big enough to deal. I am okay, really really. I mean, its nothing new. Im just extraordinarily tired, bluekkzzz. It'd be in vain if i were to say don't judge me. But well, your call; i'm not at your mercy anyway. I predict that i'll delete this post sooner or later. I needed my blog to serve a purpose, just this once. I want to do something just because i can. 5/5- Happy 19th Dev! 6/5- Happy 18th GC! we don't fight fair. 5/05/2009 noone but me from URL @ 12:05 AM Tick Tock, Lollipop. I need to stop thinking of 12 as my bedtime and press on. I don't have the time to update yet, so a quick shout out: THANK YOU VERY VERY STRAWBERRY MANY MANY MUCH to every&anyone who remembered my birthday someway or another! 18 smilies for you! :) :] :} :D :> :) :] :} :> :) :] :} :> :) :] :} (okay 2 bonus :D :D) Alrightyho, back to my mountain of homework, im a conquerer baby, watch me rock my mountain. Who kicked a hole in the sky, so the heavens would cry over me?
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